holy ghost.

1. After much love for the cartilage ear cuffs that have been so inspirational... i had made it my quest to find the perfect one.  Much searching and blog hopping later i settled on something even better.  I knew i just had to have it the moment i laid my eyes on it... the "Holy Ghost Pearl Spike Ear Cuff" by ashaloo on etsy.  Made of vintage pearls.  It dangles from behind the ear and i love how it looks worn with double and cartilage peircings on the model.  The whole single long earring look is so fab.  [should be getting mine in the mail anyday now.. can't wait to post.]

2. Morris Has Died.    My little pal... the spider that built his web in the stairwell outside apartment building... keeping me company the past few months has passed away.  Poor little guy.  He will be missed and remembered fondly every morning on my way out work.

3. Future Wedding Ring.    Low Luv by Erin Wasson Small Triple Crystal Cocktail Ring.  I don't care if this is costume jewelry.  I want something of eccentric taste and natural beauty.  Refinement just isn't my style.  I am in love with these rings cut from natural crystal.  A breath of fresh air against the standard engagement rings that i cant seem to even imagine wearing out of the house on my finger on a daily basis.

4. Dark Burgundy Lipstick.   This color is of my favorite variety.  The deep dark smoldering lip adds a bit or sultry mystery.  Especially with the addition of the smokey eye and the carefree messy waves.  Source unkown.  Might this be miss Abbey Lee Kershaw?

5. The Oversized Leather Messenger Tote.   Found these two beauties on tumblr.  An absolute must for this spring and summer.  So casual and put together all at once.  Shopping. Working. The perfect carryall.

almost any night of the week.

And then after lounging at home drinking a hard cider in my flannel shirt i decided why not bake some yummy gluten free vegan brownies.  Oh my my my was that the best thought of the night last night.  So gooey soft and delicious... and poured myself a glass of hemp milk to go along with.  Geeze it's been quite some time since i've baked something and could actually lick the spoon. mmmmmm.

Okay so i may have been slightly inspired by Hannah Glasby in this shoot by Darren McDonald from ColdAfterMidnight. This guy is one of my absolutely favorite photographers... it's just too bad some months ago he removed almost all of his freelance photowork from his blog.  His blog which used to be described as 


"Darren has a way of capturing sweet innocence.  Cold after midnight is more like a boyfriends blog showing off how beautiful his girlfriend, true love despite the girl goes from Avril Alexander to Hannah Glasby to Kate Dilliwaard to Danah Marks.  Personal work mixed with previews to his photoshhots around the world. " - capitalcitypretty.com


     has now been revamped into more of a commercial portfolio.  I must say i miss this old raw authenticity his blog portrayed in the past.  I'd absolutely love for him to release some of his old posts once again.  The blog world is empty without his previous work.

wasting away.

i've seen it in your eyes..  lying sleepless in never ending twilight..  hopes and prayers set aside..  to the intense beating of your heart ..   tearing down the gates you have so well put up..   surrendering to tears that seem to never stop..  completly taken..  keeping faith in your side pocket..  hidden and misunderstood..   but never leaves ..   

but know that ..

you glow of that same light that you desire..   you are that person that tears are shed for..   you are that one memory that is a constant ..   you are love..   you are hope..   you are believing..   you are everything ..

[my dear friend Chris Pagaduan]

happy un-birthday to me.

 sick.  sad and sick.  That's how i spent my birthday this year (march 19th) very merrily unhappy.  My nicest boyfriend tried to keep me away as he battled the flu in lonliness... an attempt to keep me well.  But of course i couldn't stay away long.. had to bring my man chicken noodle soup and medicine thursday night.  Us girls cant leave our boyfriends sick and alone... its too sad.  Yet of course i woke up friday morning with a fever.. i was a pathetic mess all day.

Saturday morning... my birthday was a drag.  Until he showed up with gifts in tow.  (pictured above: red velvet chocolate ganache cake balls // ceramic rhinocerous head wall mount we nicknamed Spencer)  Best birthday present ever though was having Jordan there sick with me on my birthday.  I mean no one wants to be sick on their birthday but it makes you feel best when you have a fever buddy you get to cozy up to and watch movies with on the couch all day... and just be a lazy mess.

You know in all i missed not having the classic birthday girl pretty party pictures with my twin sister.  Missed playtime at the bar with all my lovely friends and family.  But actually i think for this year there's know way i'd rather have spent the day and night but a cozy night in with my boy.

charmaine olivia.

 Yes!  Here it is... i finally recieved it in the mail.  My charmaine olivia print.  My punk rocker mohawk sillohuette.  It  will be an exquisite addition to my entry hallway black and white picture wall.  Stoked. The detail is wicked fierce and i am just blown away by the fact that this girl does here sillohuettes all free hand with an ink pen.  wow.  When i first stumbled her... i found another blogger raving on one of her posts... i checked out charmaine's website...and was so impressed by her paintings of ethereal women... tattooed beauties.  And then became hooked to her craft upon discovering the sillohuettes.  So many amazing prints to choose from. You must check them out.  I loved them all.  It was so hard to decide which one to buy... until i came across the below print.  I knew i had to own it..  I am in love with everypart of it.  From the girls mane to her nose ring (not sure if you can tell but its a bullring) her danngly chainy earrings to her tattoo work and the nudity.  Perfection.  I swear.   I am just wild about my etsy purchse.  Can't wait to get it framed and hanging on my wall.

And how sweet is charmaine.. she even sent a personal note to me with the print thanking me for the purchase.  No charmaine THANK YOU.  This girl deserves support.  So talented.

And look how cute she is while painting in her workspace.  She is honestly probably one of the most fashionable painters i have ever come by.  Her paintings are gorgeous and she is gorgeous too.  Here she is in the midst of finishing up one of my personal favorites of her paintings.  Isn't it marvelous?  Gosh charmaine what an inspiration! Check out her blog too.

on and on.

ok. so i know you all might be hoping i'd just post fashion pictures... but fashion is nothing without a life worth living and the styles inspired by the friends you surround yourself with.  Yes i promise to get back on with the fashionista musings as well and soon.  Yet have sadly been without a camera so been relying on the friends around me and my macbook camera for most shots.

THE LODGE:  when spoken around friends i need not say more.  This is the spot of pure pandimonium.  A spectacle every gathering with nothing but a rock band vibe and a lot of love to go around.  Where the nights roll into morning and the party lasts through the entire weekend.  This band.. these people... we are all just people getting along, dancing it up and having a sexy time.  white wine.  music.  kisses.   feathers.  pabst. and fur.  all part of our typical portland playtime.

And what better way to start the morning off than with eggs and bacon for breakfast and bloody mary's for everyone?

ummmm really.

I don't know about you but only few things cross my mind when i spot a creepy white van 

with the words "girls inc." written on the side in red lettering in some dark back alley at 11:00 

at night on the industrial east side of Portland:

   Abduction Van // Stripper Porn Van  //  Prostitution.              

need i say more.

twentyone.

Out and about... on the town with my girl alysha... she was my tag along friend invited on a 

twentyfirst birthday outing with a new and beautiful client and all her amazing friends. 

Thanking Alysha for keeping me company on this trip out with new friends all whom i hardly 

knew before this night. Thanking Victoria for all the drinks and champange and limo ride.  

This really was a perfect night thanks to all her planning and surprises. 

The body guard was a real treat...especially our private ride home in his towncar and our detour 

to three after party food spots (all closed) and finally making our way the The Roxy for some 

late night breakfast.  bacon and eggs and mimosas to top it off.

Do you see these amazing fishnet stocking with flare... always can count on Alysha pulling 

out all the stops in the fashion department with myself.  And geeze... did we happen to pull 

off quite matching rocker glam looks without even consulting eachother?

And Alysha... how in the world did you end up with the birthday crown at the end of the night?

the dark passenger.

An fashion photo found/inpired by my newest guilty pleasure.  The television series DEXTER.  I dont watch much tv at all...heck i dont even pay for cable.  But i got sucked into this show via netflix and now i am absolutely hooked.  If you haven't seen it check it out.  Yes its dark. Yes its menacing.  But its also quite witty and very loveable.  Gotta love me a little showtime.  Their series tend to be pretty near flawless and catchy.